Gathering my thoughts

Hi lovlies,
I've never been any good at expressing my thoughts, be it out loud or online and I just let other people's thoughts overwhelm me and take over my mind.
I wish I could be better at voicing my opinions and speaking up for myself but I hate the feeling of being told I'm wrong or that I can't think of say that because someone else might not agree.
I don't really know what I'm trying to say here exactly but I would like people to realise that putting me down isn't going to make me feel better about myself or make me change the way I act, if anything it's just going to make me weak and isolated.

People often comment telling me that I don't look ill so therefore I cant really use my CF as any excuse for anything. First I wanna say that I wouldn't want to use it as an excuse but just because I look fine doesn't mean for one second that I feel it. Inside I find it hard to breathe. I am constantly tired and find it hard to concentrate because of this.
I don want any sympathy, I just want to be left alone. For the comments to stop so I can feel able to admit when I'm unwell.

The most important thing to me is having supportive family and friends. They understand me.

Maybe it's because I'm unsure of myself or maybe it's because people find it hard to understand things, all I know is that it's not fair.

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I'm sorry for being so deep and depressing.
Anyway just want to get my thought across, maybe one day people will realise that just because im shy it doesn't mean that I don't have thoughts and opinions.

That's all for now,

Peace love Iz x

Festive holiday updates

Hi lovlies,
So today's blog is going to be all about my Christmas holidays with my amazing family in Sussex.
It was the first time seeing all of them in 4 months so it was very special to me.
On the first day back I went to see my amazing cousin Emily straight away, we have been counting down the days till we where reunited and it was so exiting.

We spent the day catching up, watching Christmas films and putting on fake nails.
It was such a lovely and relaxing day.


That evening I also saw my cousin Becky after so long and it made me feel so happy to be back with everyone.

The next few days I was ill so didn't see anyone, the only thing that really happened in these days was that I was finally productive during physio which was probably down to mixing AD with my acapella.

I also went to see beauty and the beast at the pants and it made the whole Christmas feel super magical and we got to spend the day in Easbourne.

Christmas Eve I went ice skating which was so much fun as it made me feel exited for the next day as I got to skate around listening to Christmas music (I say skate but I mean walk round holding on to the edge ;))

In the evening I went to church with my family and it was so fun.

On Christmas day I got to see all my cousins and uncles and aunts and got spoiled rotten by everyone. I ate every piece of food in the house and playing family games all night.

The next few days up till new year where soent playing games with friends and seeing loads of Emily.

On New Years eve me and Emily went to Poppy's house and watched divergent and played games. At night we stood outside and listened out for fireworks.

I only had a few more days of holiday left at this point so me and Emily tried to do as much fun things as we could. We went shopping in town and in a big shopping mall, we watched the fault in our stars and had a lovely drink in a village cafe.

That's all for my Christmas holidays updates.

I absolutely love my family and and grateful for them all.

At Christmas 2013 I saw JLS for the last time before they split so Christmas 2014 was a year since the split.

That it for now,

Peace love Iz x