Autumn updates

Hi everyone :)
Sorry I haven't posted in ages but my life has been super busy since August.

To start with I got my results and I can't believe how well I did. I missed a month of school just before exams and managed to get 1A* 2A 4B 1C! I'm over the moon I actually managed to pass them all.
After getting my results and I had to make one of the biggest decisions of my life...
If I should move to live with my dad and leave my grandparents. In the end I decided to move and start a new life in a new city, three hours away from my family.
I started a new sixth form and a new hospital.
School is ok but I'm now doing A levels, and taking Philosophy and Ethics, Politics, Business and Geography.

CF
As I moved house I also had to change hospitals. Although I'm now 16 and should be moving up to adult care, we decided that to settle me in to a new environment I should go to children's for a few months first.
Over summer I have been the healthiest I've ever been in my life but a few weeks ago my health started to get worse. I couldn't walk to school and general breathing was difficult.
My dr has started me on two new inhalers to relieve some of my airways and prevent inflammation.

My inhalers...

I've also been warned that if my LF doesn't go up within the next few weeks I will have to have IV's for the third time this year. To be honest I really can't be bothered to fight this illness anymore, it's hurt people I love and it's draining me. CF sucks.

It's currently half term so I'm back with my grandparents after two months and I'm so happy to see them.

I was hoping to post more on this blog but so much has been going on recently that I never seemed to find time and I had so much tell say I didn't know where to start.

Life
I've already done my life updates above but I just wanted to have an emotional rant.
I didn't want to use this blog as an outlet, but I've decided that as it's my blog I can write what I want and right now I'm feeling shit.
I'm not completely happy that I moved and I feel as if over time I will regret it more and more and I feel like I have no one because all my family and close friends live almost three hours away and I feel so alone.
Coming home was a huge wake up call because it made me realise what I had and what I've lost by moving. It's made me appreciate my life before and see that I actually did have a good life which I've now thrown away. I feel like it's all too late now.
Cf is starting to effect me more and more and I don't have the will power to fight it right now. I feel like I'm letting this illness take over me and I can't stop it...I don't know how to without it destroying me.
I guess I have just got to be strong and live for those people who mean so much to me.







Well sorry for that depressing end to my first blog post in ages, I just thought I should be honest with everyone. It's also made me feel slightly better for getting it out.



That's it for today people :)

Peace love Iz x